Chaos and Catastrophe

Sometimes things don't really go the way I planned them to. I try to fix something, and it starts out fine, and then everything blows up in my face. And it forces the fact that I haven't made the best decisions socially to the center stage. Thank goodness for the amazing person halfway across the country who is willing to listen to me sob horribly into the phone. I love you. You are wonderful and thank you. And for fantastic parents who talk things through with me and support me. You guys are the best; I love you. And I am also grateful for the two people I have met here this semester that are more than decent and willing to listen to me rage about my problems and agree that people have been more than horrible. You all are amazing, and thank you for your love and kindness.

I'll explain the above bit that I wrote earlier:
So yesterday, I talked to the roommate's boyfriend about the issue we've had, and like I said, he was super chill about it. My roommate, however, was not. We had a huge argument about it, and then she just walked out. I was so tired and get really exhausted from confrontations like that that I just started crying (which I hate to admit). Soon after, one of my other "friends" texted me to hang out. But 'hang out' is code for "We don't like that you made your roommate upset and we need to talk about how you are not part of the group anymore." OK. Fine. I was actually was told that I am a "burden", "buzz-kill", and "the negative voice in the group".

I have three things to say about this.
1. It's great that my roommate came and told you she was mad. But it is not your place AT ALL to stick your nose in to business that she and I are having and 'expel' me from the group because she is mad about something completely unrelated to you.
2. It's just lovely that I can't sleep at night, and because of that problem, I get yelled at and kicked out of the group of people I was hanging with. It makes perfect sense. Yes, you definitely thought that one through.
3. Don't come apologize. Any of you. It won't change anything because you already said it, and you definitely will not like how I respond.

And roommate: Thank you for apologizing. I know we will work this out somehow, and hopefully in a less dramatic and tense way now.